Saturday, March 29, 2008

Chasing The Shadows From Our Hearts.

Why? Why is this world so full of pain, so full of hurt and anguish? Why are some so blessed with so much and others with so little? These questions I’ve sought out to try and understand. As God’s word states in Isaiah 55 vs 8 His ways are not our ways.


Audrey and I were so blessed as children to live our early years within an intact family with more than we ever needed. We've been blessed with four healthy children and now you’ve called Audrey and I to reach out and touch the lives of two young sisters that live on the other side of the world that have had such tragic beginning.


The story we've been told is that the father was killed in an automobile accident and their mother took her life over 11 years ago. They went to live with their grand parents until last year when they could no longer take care of them. Off to the orphanage they were sent. I can’t imagine the pain and sorrow they’ve felt in their tender youthful years.


I’m still amazed that God put sisters on our heart over two years ago and here we are adopting sisters. That's not really common when adopting from China. We have three children still left at home Brittany, Donny and Evan. Brittany and Donny are in college while Even is a senior in high school. Our daughter Andrea was married off to Jordan Wise back on December 31st. They now live in Sacramento.


A few months ago I went through some sleepless nights over this adoption:

How are they going to disrupt my routine?

How will this adoption affect the relationship with our children?

The total cost of this adoption?

How will we communicate with them?

Will they cause marital strife?

This is completely out of my comfort zone Lord!


The Lord reminded me that it’s not about me! When I look at their pictures I ask myself; what about their fears? They didn’t have a choice when they lost their parents. When I study their pictures I ask questions to myself:

Who does Xiao Way look like? Here father or mother?

Does Dan Ya’s have her Dad's smile?

I look at their pictures and wonder how they will feel when they are told they will be moving to United States of America with a new family?

Will they be excited or terrified?

Will they cry and plead not to leave?

Have they ever been on a plane? Will they be afraid to fly? If so how will I comfort them if we can’t communicate?

Will they like their new brothers and sisters? Will they feel welcome?

How they will miss their friends at the orphanage? How can we keep engaged to their past?

Are their Grand Parents still alive? If so, how will they feel about their moving away?

Will I be able to bring them comfort from their fears?

Lord, please be in the details of this adoption. Comfort them as you have Audrey and I.


Please look at Xiao Way (chowway) and LuoYa’s picture. Pray for them and that the adoption will go smooth. I pray that God will be glorified through this process and that he chase the shadows from our hearts as we seek Him each step of the way.


We invite you to be apart of our adoption of Xiao Way 13 (soon to be 14 ) and Ya 12 through this blog. I will continue to update with pictures and share other pieces of the puzzle that led us to the adoption.

God bless for now.

Tim, Audrey & Family.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

May God Bless You and your new blended family. How lucky you and the girls are. He has already blessed you. Love, Linda